I am still feeling giddy from finishing my first shitty first draft last week. I have and editor, and she is currently working on helping me perfect it. I’m slowly moving closer to achieving what I want, and I am nervous because I am both afraid of failing and succeeding. I am having a hard time trying to figure out which I am more afraid of, but the fears are different. I’m in control of whether I fail or not, so I keep stepping out of my comfort zone and pushing myself, but I feel like I can only control my success to a certain point. I’ll have to keep pushing and stepping over new thresholds, and it sounds as scary as it does exciting.
I have sucked up some of my fear and posted the first chapters of both books I’m working on on the My Novels page. They are linked from my Evernote and formatted for easy reading. As I continue to edit, I will post links to the updated drafts, and eventually post PDF copies of the books for my readers to read. I’m hoping that if people read the free copies, they can decide whether they like my style, and hopefully start purchasing my subsequent books.
Like the song says, it’s hard out there for a pimp.